The Missing Link

Looking back,
I think I've lost my track.
Things I have done,
Mistakes which cannot be undone,
Having almost everything but almost none.
Reminiscence is very much useless,
All I need is love and carresses.
Someone to go home to,
But my world is now in two.
Only to find myself infatuated with women with issues,
Why is love so hard to pursue.
I am not asking for much,
But just want to walk again without crutches,
Pointless crushes.
Looking into her eyes knowing you can never have,
Getting swept by a wave.
Not pulling you further into the core,
But sending you back to shore.
When reality hits,
Tearing that painted picture to bits.
You look back asking what am I looking for,
Just someone to hold onto nothing more.
Before the tide moves out dragging me out again,
Leaving me once again in pain.
What I will give to turn back time.
To be more selfish and have you to stay,
History would have not gone astray.
But history let be,
Even when you're in front of me.
Distance have a way of destroying things,
Sending you packing,
Leaving me waiting,
Cold is now the feeling,
I need to bridge what's missing.
The missing link.